This post is very dear to my heart. I really wanted to put up an outfit that illustrates my love & passion for my two favourite Gothic Metal bands. HIM & Marilyn Manson are the reason I’m still here today writing these lines and sharing my dark fashion insights with you guys. In every person’s life, there are some quite rough times that need something to hold on to. Something that gives us strength & an unalterable will to carry on; a rock. Well, these two bands were, still are and always will be my two rocks.
Ville Valo and Marilyn Manson saved me during two extremely difficult periods of my life. The first one happened when I moved from Lebanon to France permanently (the second time I change countries as I’ve been doing it my whole life basically; for more details about that, I’ll put a link down below of my co-authored post: “The Cosmopolitan Child: pros & cons”). This transition was very hard as I was already a teenager (17 yo) and more aware of the challenges such a change brings with it (the first time I moved out of a country was when I was 9 yo). I had to adapt yet again to another culture, despite the fact that it was closer to mine as I was going back to Europe again (born in Bulgaria). I was returning home in a sense, but it sure didn’t feel that way. The moving took place quite fast and before I knew it, I found myself in a new country where I had to re-adapt yet again. As I arrived in the summer, school wasn’t starting until 3 months later, so I had no one to talk or spend time with except my family, my music and my dark soul. I did enjoy the much faster internet connection though (Lebanon is known for one of the shittiest connections in the world lol), so I took upon myself to download the discographies of all of my favourite bands starting with HIM of course. I spent endless days and especially nights, listening & discovering more and more bands in various metal genres. I felt so rich; I felt truly happy. Every night, I would watch on Youtube countless of interviews with Ville Valo, all of HIM’s live concerts and performances, along with all of the band’s albums and rare tracks of course. That way I never felt alone, I was embracing further and further my Gothic nature and music.
When it comes to the second incident that required my music’s help, it occurred not so long ago (and is still on-going), after I graduated from University with a Master’s degree in Public International Law. As most of you already know, the current economic climate does not really help with finding internships and jobs. I struggled for 4 months after I graduated to find my first internship. And when it ended 3 months later, I have been looking ever since, for 6 months now, for a job. If it wasn’t for Marilyn Manson’s music, art, philosophy and not-giving-up/not-giving-a-damn attitude making me stronger & stronger, I wouldn’t be still looking and insisting on getting a job in my field, which I’m very passionate about.
It is the Beauty in my Darkness and the Darkness in my Beautiful world that make me carry on no matter what. I love it so much that it makes me cry every time I listen to those songs that saved me. That’s why I am most honoured to share with you two of my most favourite performances of HIM and Marilyn Manson (links down below).
Hope you enjoyed the read!
Dark Kisses ~
HIM – The Funeral of Hearts (acoustic): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f_EBFlHUjmU
Marilyn Manson – In the Shadow of the Valley of Death: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y4eh9NTzn7I
My post about the pros & cons of living a cosmopolitan life: https://juristenebris.wordpress.com/2016/04/20/the-cosmopolitan-child-pros-cons-co-authored-post/
In this look: Ralph Lauren Denim & Supply Black/Grey American Flag T-Shirt; Uniqlo Black Blazer; Asos Black Ripped Jeans; Black Nike RosheRuns; Prada Sunglasses; Marilyn Manson Twisted Heart Logo Pendant (Silver); Black Onyx Rosary
Pictures by Vincent; Editing by me.